The Boy and the Stars

I once met a boy, seven, whose magic hands could pick a star from the sky. One night he took the brightest one, put it in his pencil case, and brought it to his school. His peers looked in awe at the cotton-like, glittering star. He was soon known as The Boy with a Star in His Pencil Case, and gained many friends. But, the star stayed bright for seven days only. Soon it faded away. As the light was dimming, so were his friends leaving. With no bright star in his pencil case, the boy was left alone.

He grew up, and learned more.

At fourteen, the boy caught another star. It was bigger and brighter than the first one. He put it inside a clear glass, locked it, and hung it by the window of his bedroom. The star shone bright, and made his home look so special. Soon, he was known as The Boy with a Star by the Window of His Bedroom. Neighbors flocked in awe, and wondering who the boy was. But, the star stayed bright only for seven months. Soon it faded away, and soon he was left alone again. Everybody forgot who he was.

He grew up, and learned much more.

At twenty one, he built himself a big air balloon. The carriage was good for two, with some extra space. One night, as the sky was the brightest, and all the stars in the universe were shining, he prepared the air balloon to take off. He made an announcement to the people in his town.

"When I was young, I kept the love in a pencil case. I was brokenhearted soon. As I grew up, I tried to share it with many. Still, I was not good enough to do it. Tonight, I want to fly up there, and live among the stars. It might sound crazy, and but this air balloon that I built is good for two. If you believe in me, come and join me. We may not live long up there, and but we'll be among the stars."

Illustration by Kathy Mackey, GettyImages.com

Posted at 02:33 by VE HANDOJO

When I say that I'm against religions ...

... it's because I want to put God in the proper position; out of all kinds of box we humans - especially those who proclaim their inferiority over a Supreme Being - have put him/her into.

... I never say I'm an atheist, neither an agnostic - for I humbly admit that I don't fully understand the meaning of it.

... it's because I believe humans should be either godly, or godless. Any doubt to make you stand in between will lead to confusion and false beliefs that will spread like a deadly virus.

... I am encouraging those who are identified as merely religious to free themselves from rules, laws, and doctrines that predecessors had stamped and/or suggested, and elevate to the level where we are supposed to be: a personal communion with the Supreme Being we believe where we can enjoy first-hand experience of their supremacy.

... it's because we all have witnessed the mess religions have made and are still making in this world.

... it's because I truly believe that religions are man-made. Spirituality doesn't count on rules, laws, and doctrines, but ultimately on personal experience. A communion of believers should be focused on edifying each other to escalate the level of spirituality and godliness, and should never interfere with other things, especially politics.

... I am also saying that I am a Christian, and Christianity is not a religion. I am truly sorry if many who claimed themselves as Christians - even "born again" ones - still think otherwise, thus not helping to make the world a better place for all.

... I am encouraging all of us to be free from symbols, and claim each of our own selves a unique individual, spiritually defined by either a very personal relationship with the Supreme Being, or absolutely none of such things.

I believe ...

... God has zero interest in your religion. That, if you believe in God.

... God won't mind how many times you follow or break the rules. God will only be concerned about our personal relationship with Him/Her.

... religions have too many things to do with God. God has nothing to do with religions.

... religions do not care about us, but we care too much about them.

Illustrations by Daniel Grizelj, GettyImages

Posted at 02:17 by VE HANDOJO

Stop Waiting

"He has made everything beautiful in its time." This first part of Ecclesiastes 2 verse 11 is usually left standing alone, implying us to wait for the perfect time when God will answer our prayers.

The following part of the beautiful verse is easily neglected, and rarely thought about; "Also He has put eternity in their hearts, except that no one can find out the work that God does from beginning to end."

Have we had eternity in our hearts, or are still bound by the dimension of time? What is the sole indication of someone who has had an eternity in his heart? Only one, and one alone: there's no fear of the end of days. There's no fear of death. Eternity rests, thus he is not bound by the dimension of time. Patience, therefore, is never an issue anymore. He will no longer ask the question "when".

To put the heart into total surrender, digest the last part of the verse, saying that none of us - not a single one of us - will be able to understand or comprehend the work that God does from the very beginning, to the very end. God is beyond our reason, beyond our understanding of time, because God is Eternity himself. The dimension of time is within him.

There is no waiting for the perfect time. There is only total surrender to Him. You don't question when your prayers will be answered anymore. Once you believe that "everything is beautiful in its time", you have to stop waiting. You have to let eternity rests in your heart, and face the fact that you will never understand what God is doing with your life. And, that, my friend, is a beautiful thing.

Bible Verses: New King James Version
Illustration: Amanda Hall, GettyImages

Posted at 23:59 by VE HANDOJO

Samarinda and Balikpapan in a Flash

Picking Balikpapan and Samarinda as my birthday spot was an easy choice since I met Dragono Halim through Twitter. Yes, it's fun to go to new places where you don't know anybody - and, even better if English doesn't valid there. But, exploring new territory and friendship at the same time is also a good idea.

That, until Puppy and I fell sick.

Samarinda Sky was heavenly, and the impression was made stronger with the elegant Islamic Center and its minarets by the Mahakam River.

We spent almost half of the time in Balikpapan and Samarinda not feeling well. Surely, it didn't stop us to enjoy Kepiting Kenari in Jalan Pasar Pagi, Samarinda. Halim convinced us that cracking and sucking the giant arthropode will make us at least 30% Samarindan. I'm not a big fan of hassle dining. Cracking those tweezers is as hard as hammering a nail on to the wall. Yet, the crab was really good, bathed thoroughly in sweet and sour sauce.

The next morning, we cross the Mahakam River, and reached Samarinda Seberang. Strolling Jalan Pangeran, not far from the busy pier, we found wooden houses functioning as small shops, and sarong "factory". Old housewives tending the shops while weaving the threads in a traditional manner. The sarong they produce would then be sold in the town, priced at Rp 500,000 - Rp 1,000,000.

We went to Pampang, the designated Dayak village for tourists, and stopped by at the zoo to have our first encounter with orangutans. They were all quick visits that made us officially check-list tourists - God knows I actually hate that, but the unfit condition gave me no choice.

The East Borneo Experience will typically include eating fried mantou, crossing Mahakam River, and cracking the giant crab, Kepiting Kenari.

Our favorite discovery in Samarinda was a small and promising coffee shop by the Mahakam River, called Kopirenk. Serving French-pressed Arabicas from Toraja and Sumatera, the coffee shop had a cool open air rooftop terrace upstair, where we sip hot - but, too watery - java while gazing at the stars.

Leaving the town to Balikpapan, we stopped by to take some snapshots of the city's Islamic Center under an angry sun. The sky was heavenly blue, with soft cotton-like clouds blessing the day.

The overland trip to Balikpapan took almost three hours. We had our dinner just across Aston Balikpapan, our condotel. Then, we had the overview of the city's modern lifestyle in the new mall; Starbucks, Pizza Hut, and all that. The young people of Balikpapan seemed to ready to spend for heightened lifestyle. Thriving indeed.

Most impressive place we went to Balikpapan as The Beach House in Manggar area, around 30 minutes driving from the heart of the city. It's the playground for the haves and the expats. The beach itself was narrow, but the view gave no border between heaven and ocean.

We crossed the city to the other end, only to try the fried mantou - that small bun you have in almost every Chinese restaurant - served with slices of grilled deer meat in black pepper sauce. Apparently, it made us like 90% native Balikpapans.

Balikpapan Beach promises an enchanting evening for the whole family. Pray this place won't be too commercialized.

Overall, Samarinda was a nice town, filled with nice people, and great food. There's a sense of familiarity in almost every corner. There seemed to be no rush, and no ambition. With a little push and a bigger vision, the city could be a cool destination. Balikpapan, on the other hand, needs some control in developing. The mall was nice, yet alarming. The little promenade and waterfront area should be the focus of development to welcome travelers, and serve locals with good, authentic, well-anchored lifestyle.

Posted at 18:30 by VE HANDOJO

Sebuah Malam Ulang Tahun

Saya kurang ingat saat itu menjelang ulang tahun saya yang keberapa tepatnya. Entah ke-delapan, entah ke-sembilan. Yang jelas, beberapa hari menjelang hari itu, Ayah tidak pulang ke rumah.

Satu malam berlalu tanpa Ayah, dan lalu dua malam, dan Ibu mulai beralih dari marah ke kuatir. Di malam kesekian - atau beberapa jam sebelum saya bertambah usia - Ibu meminta tolong temannya mengantarnya mencari Ayah. Karena saya juga merasa kehilangan, saya pun diajak naik mobil keliling ke daerah Kota dan Mangga Besar malam-malam. Di setiap hotel kelas melati, mobil kami berhenti, saya menunggu di dalam bersama Ibu, dan temannya bertanya-tanya apakah Ayah menginap di hotel itu atau tidak.

Saat itu, saya tidak mengerti kenapa Ibu dan temannya mencari-cari Ayah ke hotel-hotel. Saya tidak mengerti kenapa Ayah tidak pulang. Saya tidak mengerti kenapa Ibu yang pertama marah, lantas jadi kuatir, dan lalu sedih. Yang saya tahu, saya jadi jatuh sakit malam itu.

Pencarian tidak membuahkan hasil. Sepulangnya, Ibu menelepon semua teman-teman Ayah yang ia kenal, dan mengabarkan bahwa saya sakit, dan suhu tubuh saya meninggi.

Paginya, saya bangun, dan Ibu mengucapkan selamat ulang tahun. Saya hanya bisa bertanya apakah Ayah sudah pulang. Ibu menggeleng. Namun, ulang tahun saya harus tetap dirayakan. Ibu memasak lebih banyak, mengundang teman-teman sekolah saya untuk datang di sore hari, dan memesan kue ulang tahun.

Saya tidak ingat siapa saja yang datang di sorenya. Teman-teman sekolah, tetangga-tetangga, sanak saudara - itu sudah pasti. Tapi, saya tidak ingat wajah mereka, saya tidak ingat nama mereka yang datang. Satu-satunya yang saya ingat adalah ketika di ujung pesta, saat hampir semua hendak bubar, Ayah akhirnya pulang.

Ayah membawa sebuah bingkisan hadiah yang besar sekali. Isinya ternyata seperangkat mobil balap mainan, lengkap dengan sirkuit-nya, dan lampu-lampu yang bisa menyala. Saya masih ingat dengan jelas ketika Ibu mematikan lampu rumah, dan membiarkan saya bermain dalam kegelapan supaya nyala lampu mobil mainan itu semakin terang.

Sekarang, saya mengerti bahwa saat itu saya adalah satu-satunya alasan buat Ayah untuk pulang entah dari mana. Saya mengerti bahwa dalam pernikahan yang seringkali tidak ideal, anak bisa menjadi satu-satunya tali pengikat. Terkadang, ikatan begitu kuat hingga seorang anak bisa tertekan hingga jatuh sakit.

Sampai hari ini, Ayah dan Ibu tetap bersama. Saya bersyukur dulu saya pernah jatuh sakit untuk membuat Ayah pulang ke rumah.

Posted at 04:12 by VE HANDOJO

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